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Sarah,

It took me days, to finalize this message, countless revisions to make sure my words are clear, and messages implied. I don’t know, I wanted to make it bold yet I know I might end up misunderstood. And I might turn out arguing or fighting with you if I try to impart my side. 

There are a lot of things going on my mind, but for you. I will make things short. And I wanted to make it helpful for you, since you’d love to make judgments by yourself, then this message is only full of thoughts and simple statements – comprehending, acceptance and all’s left to you.

*Firstly, I meant what I said, I am sorry.

*I tried to be silent against your accusations and insults.

*I said “take care, bye.” when I left. That was the first and only time I walked out of our conversation – You’re not always the only one who’ve had enough.

*The hell with where I’m into. Yeah, I know and I admit am good for nothing.

*God knows I loved you sincerely. Minahal kita Sarj, against all circumstances.

*True, hindi tayo nagkakasundo sa ibang mga bagay, lagi tayo nagaaway lately, and our commitment has given us loads of stresses and pains.

*But like I’ve shared you before, whenever I think of giving up, I came to think of the reason why I held on for so long. There's a lot of reasons for me to stay, and one could be more than enough; knowing we both loved.

*Love, something we had that’s worth fighting for, that’s worth dying for… forever, but I alone, since you gave up already.

*I cannot imagine just why and how you easily forgot everything that we had and utters only our mistakes and differences.

* Kung nagmamahal ka, first thing na iisipin mo shud be “how to solve the problems. What we can and what we cannot do about it. Yet, you won’t even let a talk happen between us.

*All these ended up this way, not because I failed to show you love – it’s just that I failed, to meet your expectations.

*To be your enemy would definitely be the last thing that I wanted now, if I could just turn back time, I should have ignored my feelings, and maintain a good friendship with you until the very time that we can do more, and better.

*Life offers limitless possibilities; I would be contented to be out of your life if that’s how you wanted me to.

*I had you, and am grateful to Him.

*I’d lost you, and might not have you even just as a friend, but I hope when the time comes, and we met. We both hold no grudges, but the good times and bonds we had, the short but true love we shared.

*Im sorry, I truly am.

 *Thank You, you’ve been the best part of my life, and will ever be.

*I love you.

*I love you, I will then, let God, and let go. But never will I get over you.

*Forgive me, I’ve forgiven you already.  We’re made perfectly as imperfects, you and I.

The last sentence holds great meaning; Forgiving means forgetting. If we don’t want things to happen over again, let us not bring the past up anymore. You’re right, and what’s done is done. We had a failed relationship, but forgetting doesn’t mean we can’t start anew again; in different circumstances. People change, it’s from you.

See? I made this short. Now, its ended...

Joemm

You Are Right

The truth has been told,

And all is well,

If I have done something wrong,

Might as well be aware,

Cause I never thought,

Never could foresee,

How I made it worse then it had to be,

Do not get me wrong,

I know it is my fault,

I know that your words,

Were just my spite,

I have to let you,

Fight this one alone,

Cause if you listen to me,

You are sure to see,

I not fair,

I am unforgiving,

I do what ever it takes,

To make sure I am winning,

I guess I could have seen,

Just what I was doing,

But I was to busy,

Making things worse,

No longer will I stand in the way,

I trust you,

In everyway,

It is your decision,

Do not do things my way.

Let's work it now...

His way...

I love you...

Forever, I will.

Your Farewell Message

Just after you ended up things with me. Just when I thought, everything would be alright. I know what I've done wrong, and maybe there's nothing more now that I could do to make you see and feel my heart... I was alone, and you came, I loved, and I felt loved the way that I wanted to be, just so perfect except for the fact, that you and I, cannot be together, or might never be together. I'll never regret having you in my life, losing you will make me be half incomplete. Forever. But I'll be holding on the things that we've had - because I knew we both loved. And I knew, I'll never get over you...

I will remember, and will ever keep this last message you've made for me, when you and I we're still in our peak, of loving and caring for one another. You've made me lose an identity, but I will now pull it back and accept, that I am Jo, and my existence was meant to be Solitary.

And maybe you're right, this time. I'll be speechless.

I love you, and definitely... This is my sweetest downfall.

-Sarj to Jo, 09/22/2010:

You have always asked me the reason why I am in love with you,, and I constantly stay speechless when I attempt to find the answer.. The truth is that I have too much reasons that I struggle to find the best ones to finalise my response..
here are some:
I love you cause I believe what we have is for real..
I love you as am sure of how I feel..
I love you cause am at my happiest whenever am in touch with you..
I love you as I have faith in me and you..
I love you cause you make me feel complete on a daily basis..
I love you cause I look forward to spending my every single day with you, face-to-face..
I love you enough to realise that I will be the most miserable person to exist if I ever try to let go of you..
I love you cause you’re able to calm me down when am about to loosen up my grip..
I love you cause you’re the only one who shows perseverance and patience when it comes to maintaining the foundation of our relationship..
I love you cause I feel like I can tell you everything without being terrified of what you may think..
I love you cause you listen to my every moans, demands and problems, and for trying your very best to solve as much anxiety as we possibly could..
I love you cause every single word that comes out from your mouth simply makes sense, like as if you have the knowledge to make me understand the issues that I struggle to comprehend..
I love you cause you care enough regarding how I feel, therefore considering me with your every decisions..
I love you cause you make me feel that you’re always near even though you’re literally miles away from where I am staying..
I love you for being so stubborn to put up with me despite of my appalling behaviour (which I hope you won’t agree of, haha) that only causes you dismay at some time..
I love you for taking out of your system all our past misunderstandings, and for only noticing the pleasant side of me..
I love you for forgiving me for all my mistakes again and again and again regardless of the pain I caused you to begin with..
I love you for valuing my existence as your "other half" and for appreciating the parts that I have done in order to sustain our so-called commitment..
I love you for giving me your never-ending compliments at all times..
I love you for respecting my every decisions and requests, and for being understanding at most times..
I love you for loving me and for not failing to remind me that, by heart and by words, day after day..
I love you for being part of the reason of my tears and laughter this past few days..
And for all this, I will do my best never to stop loving you, from now and throughout forever, notwithstanding the hindrances of distance, time and pain.
I love you for who and what you are, from the moment I met you.
I love you,, I just do.. It’s as simple as that..

Happy 3rd Month Anniversary..
It’s about time I make you one too.. though it's not as great as yours.. hehe..
You're the best thing that happened to me! I love you! =)]

I Would Give Anything For That Happily Ever After

I would give anything for that happily ever after.
I would sing from the highest mountain.
Hold my breath in the deepest sea.
Walk for hundred miles.
Just to have you by my side.

I would give anything for that happily ever after.
I would dance a millions dances.
Write poem after poem.
Swim over thousand miles.
Just to have you by my side.

I would give anything for that happily ever after.
I would run across the state.
Draw picture after picture.
Cry a million tears.
Just to have you by my side.

I would give anything for that happily ever after.
I would yell from the rough tops.
Jump to the moon.
Smile billion times at you.
Just to have you by my side .

I would do anything for that happily ever after.
I would be you're umbrella when it rains.
You're bestfriend when you need to talk.
You're back a trillion times if you feel no one has yours.
Just to have you by my side.

If you don't believe me,
Close your eyes and feel my heart…
There is pain from the past,
But you mack it go away.

There is love,
For my Creator and for you.
There is depression and frustration
But you mack it happiness.

There are so many bad things,
You mack them all good.
I would give anything for that happily ever after.
Just to have you by my side….

My beloved, my behalf.

-Jo

09-04-2010 happy 2nd month baby...

We Is Forever

you might think that we’ll fall apart,

that someday, our chain will gone break

but I look at us and see that can’t be true

for there’s a bond we’ll always make

that no huge distance could ever break…

people might say someday we’ll drift away

fade apart, threw out the time

but no matter what they think they know

you’re always on my mind

friends in mind, real lovers in heart

that is what we’ll always be

and that is how we’re meant to work this

till the time that He calls us to bind

this will be you and me

our memories will be forever

that is why we so legit

though people down us everyday

though doubts and frights race through our veins

because this is love

that’s what we have, we do admit

they might say that we’ll fall real soon

in our hearts we see that’s a no…

because for us, there is no such timeline

because to us,

We is Forever…

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Bitter Reality

It's Time for Miracles

It's late at night and I can't sleep…

missing you just runs too deep

hell I can't breathe, thinking of your smile

everything I can't forget,

this aching heart that’s not broken yet.

Oh God I wish I could make you see

because I know this flame isn't dying

so nothing can stop me from trying…

Baby, you know that

maybe it's time for miracles

because I’m not playing with love.

You know that maybe it's time for miracles

because I am more than sincere for us.

No I'm serious when I say I love you.

You came into my dying life

Simply - unexpected,

then everything took a better turn from worst.

Your warm eyes, your laughs,

the loud but charming way you speak,

your sagacity behind innocence,

and the honesty you showed me,

all became a part of me, and will ever be…

Baby, you know that

maybe it's time for miracles

because I’m not just dreaming

You know that maybe it's time for miracles

because I’ll keep on holding on and fighting…

No I’m working things out…

As you unfolded yourself to me,

and as I held on a real fantasy…

I discovered more and more beauty.

I have never been so much

fascinated in living, and loving.

Yet without even knowing it,

you suddenly made the place

for yourself in me, in my heart…

Baby, you know that

maybe it's time for miracles

because I’m not giving up on love

You know that maybe it's time for miracles

because I’m not giving up on love

No I’m not giving up on us…

Baby, you know that

maybe it’s time for miracles

because you and I are meant to be.

You know that maybe it’s time for miracles

because I’ll be making our dreams,

frustrations, and love…

here from the screen, into

Reality.

-Jo
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Im Not Asking Too Much

I long to watch you sleep

To feel the warmth of your breath upon my cheek

I dream of tracing the outline of your face with a gentle touch

Just to see your lips curl in a sudden smile...

I’m not asking too much...

I long to hear your voice

To feel your laughs echoing my ears

I dream of placing and locking my fingers in between yours

Just to see how it would fit so right with mine

I'm not asking too much...

I long for you to hold my hand

To feel your arms surround me in a hug

I dream of waking having you in my arms and sleeping two bodies as one

Just to see your eyes dance with laughter...

I’m not asking too much...

I long for you to walk with me

To feel your presence as we explore some scenes

I dream of spending my days with you and only you

Just to share this love I have for you

I’m not asking too much...

I long to be your man

To feel your heart beat next to mine

I dream of taking you to the altar and putting you my ring

Just to witness our lives throughout eternity

Im not asking too much...

I long for a plane from Scotland

To land upon these distant shores

I dream of the day we finally see each other face to face

Just knowing that this is meant to be...

I'm not asking too much...

You think I'm asking too much?

-artistJo

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How To Truly Love Someone

Love, every relationship revolves around this fancy word. I don’t even believe that the meaning of this word, Love exists, because for me, Love could mean everything, and anything. Curiosity knocked me for some times, and foolishly I've responded by mistake with some deceiving characteristics it showed. At this moment, I know I’ve finally found the right woman to share with this mysterious feeling. Complicated and impossible this may seem, lot of things are going so wrong, and I honestly don’t know yet how I could work this out, but all know is that it feels so right. And everything’s going to be all right. Miracles happens everyday.

In the first place, how could you/we know that what we’re feeling is love? How exactly it is to love someone? How can we say we’re giving justice to the word love? Here are some characteristics I could give you to define “true love”; let’s specify it as true, because love can be faked too. If you want to show real love to someone, keep these words somewhere with you.

Firstly, love is sure kind, it seeks to encourage and build up others. It respects the feelings and emotions of one another... It finds its greatest satisfaction in making others happy. Kindness can be seen when you give one another things such as gifts and encouragement cards. Complement each other; magnify the other party’s strength, instead of trying hard to change him/her.
Sometimes, just listen. Listen to one another. Pay close attention to what each of you has to say and make each other feel that what each says is important. 

Obviously, true love is proud. So treat one another special in public. Compliment and encourage one another sincerely in the presence of others. Doing this passively provides assurance and comfort. Both of you is feeling so wonderful about yourselves.

Love is not jealous. Jealousy usually indicates an insecure and immature heart. Love wants the best for others, but jealousy is possessive. Jealous is reflected in the childish statement, “If he is going to talk to her, then he can just forget about me!” and often, one person wants to totally own the other and restrict his/her relationships with others…

Love is not about bragging. It’s not airy and is never to impress. Most of the times, one tends to always think how to please the other, trying to show nice impressions that’s really unnecessary – because a man who is true to himself, however, does not need to exalt himself, others will praise him.
Love is not arrogant; it’s not conceited, boastful, cocky, or stagnant, instead, is humble and has a servant attitude. Sometimes, your partner may come to threaten you with the “I can take you or leave you” attitude – that sarcastically implies, “You should be thankful that somebody as me is just so patient with you.” (Pasalamat ka nagtitiis pa ako sa tulad mo.) Of course, this is not love!
Love always covers - this word cover means to pass over in silence; to keep confidential, to have another’s trust and confidence, and sometimes indicates intimacy.

Love is patient with the mistakes of others. It doesn't criticize, interrogate and brag to the other or to the world the faults his/her partner committed, true love should stay, even when it knows the other is not perfect…

Love always perseveres. Love always stands its ground and hold on. It will endure anything. It will even love in the face of unrequited (one-sided) love; real love will last and grew though all sorts of trials, complications and stress.
Love is never provoked; this means that love has a long fuse. It does not become irritated and angry. It is not easily offended…

Love does not seek its own. This is the heart of love. Love is other-centered rather than self- centered. Love says, “I love you, I always want to love you.” Selfishness says, “I love you, I want you!”
Love does not act recklessly. This means that love does not behave clumsy, immoral or shameful. It does not embarrass others by its action. It is characterized by tact and sensitivity. This also means that love should have good manner. For the guys, let’s give justice to the word gentleman, and for the gals, always act conservatively.

Lastly, Love is forgiving; it keeps no record of wrongs. This is a MUST for a successful love story. If someone is not willing to forgive and forget with the most little mistakes, he/she is not exhibiting love. One must not hold grudges when it has been wronged. It doesn’t remain resentful.
Remember this: Love forgets past failures and sins.

I am grateful if you’d reach this part of this piece of crap, and I hope you’ve learned a little with all this drama. Or the least, I made you smile, laugh, doubt or think of someone – without you knowing it.