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Sarah,

It took me days, to finalize this message, countless revisions to make sure my words are clear, and messages implied. I don’t know, I wanted to make it bold yet I know I might end up misunderstood. And I might turn out arguing or fighting with you if I try to impart my side. 

There are a lot of things going on my mind, but for you. I will make things short. And I wanted to make it helpful for you, since you’d love to make judgments by yourself, then this message is only full of thoughts and simple statements – comprehending, acceptance and all’s left to you.

*Firstly, I meant what I said, I am sorry.

*I tried to be silent against your accusations and insults.

*I said “take care, bye.” when I left. That was the first and only time I walked out of our conversation – You’re not always the only one who’ve had enough.

*The hell with where I’m into. Yeah, I know and I admit am good for nothing.

*God knows I loved you sincerely. Minahal kita Sarj, against all circumstances.

*True, hindi tayo nagkakasundo sa ibang mga bagay, lagi tayo nagaaway lately, and our commitment has given us loads of stresses and pains.

*But like I’ve shared you before, whenever I think of giving up, I came to think of the reason why I held on for so long. There's a lot of reasons for me to stay, and one could be more than enough; knowing we both loved.

*Love, something we had that’s worth fighting for, that’s worth dying for… forever, but I alone, since you gave up already.

*I cannot imagine just why and how you easily forgot everything that we had and utters only our mistakes and differences.

* Kung nagmamahal ka, first thing na iisipin mo shud be “how to solve the problems. What we can and what we cannot do about it. Yet, you won’t even let a talk happen between us.

*All these ended up this way, not because I failed to show you love – it’s just that I failed, to meet your expectations.

*To be your enemy would definitely be the last thing that I wanted now, if I could just turn back time, I should have ignored my feelings, and maintain a good friendship with you until the very time that we can do more, and better.

*Life offers limitless possibilities; I would be contented to be out of your life if that’s how you wanted me to.

*I had you, and am grateful to Him.

*I’d lost you, and might not have you even just as a friend, but I hope when the time comes, and we met. We both hold no grudges, but the good times and bonds we had, the short but true love we shared.

*Im sorry, I truly am.

 *Thank You, you’ve been the best part of my life, and will ever be.

*I love you.

*I love you, I will then, let God, and let go. But never will I get over you.

*Forgive me, I’ve forgiven you already.  We’re made perfectly as imperfects, you and I.

The last sentence holds great meaning; Forgiving means forgetting. If we don’t want things to happen over again, let us not bring the past up anymore. You’re right, and what’s done is done. We had a failed relationship, but forgetting doesn’t mean we can’t start anew again; in different circumstances. People change, it’s from you.

See? I made this short. Now, its ended...

Joemm

You Are Right

The truth has been told,

And all is well,

If I have done something wrong,

Might as well be aware,

Cause I never thought,

Never could foresee,

How I made it worse then it had to be,

Do not get me wrong,

I know it is my fault,

I know that your words,

Were just my spite,

I have to let you,

Fight this one alone,

Cause if you listen to me,

You are sure to see,

I not fair,

I am unforgiving,

I do what ever it takes,

To make sure I am winning,

I guess I could have seen,

Just what I was doing,

But I was to busy,

Making things worse,

No longer will I stand in the way,

I trust you,

In everyway,

It is your decision,

Do not do things my way.

Let's work it now...

His way...

I love you...

Forever, I will.

Your Farewell Message

Just after you ended up things with me. Just when I thought, everything would be alright. I know what I've done wrong, and maybe there's nothing more now that I could do to make you see and feel my heart... I was alone, and you came, I loved, and I felt loved the way that I wanted to be, just so perfect except for the fact, that you and I, cannot be together, or might never be together. I'll never regret having you in my life, losing you will make me be half incomplete. Forever. But I'll be holding on the things that we've had - because I knew we both loved. And I knew, I'll never get over you...

I will remember, and will ever keep this last message you've made for me, when you and I we're still in our peak, of loving and caring for one another. You've made me lose an identity, but I will now pull it back and accept, that I am Jo, and my existence was meant to be Solitary.

And maybe you're right, this time. I'll be speechless.

I love you, and definitely... This is my sweetest downfall.

-Sarj to Jo, 09/22/2010:

You have always asked me the reason why I am in love with you,, and I constantly stay speechless when I attempt to find the answer.. The truth is that I have too much reasons that I struggle to find the best ones to finalise my response..
here are some:
I love you cause I believe what we have is for real..
I love you as am sure of how I feel..
I love you cause am at my happiest whenever am in touch with you..
I love you as I have faith in me and you..
I love you cause you make me feel complete on a daily basis..
I love you cause I look forward to spending my every single day with you, face-to-face..
I love you enough to realise that I will be the most miserable person to exist if I ever try to let go of you..
I love you cause you’re able to calm me down when am about to loosen up my grip..
I love you cause you’re the only one who shows perseverance and patience when it comes to maintaining the foundation of our relationship..
I love you cause I feel like I can tell you everything without being terrified of what you may think..
I love you cause you listen to my every moans, demands and problems, and for trying your very best to solve as much anxiety as we possibly could..
I love you cause every single word that comes out from your mouth simply makes sense, like as if you have the knowledge to make me understand the issues that I struggle to comprehend..
I love you cause you care enough regarding how I feel, therefore considering me with your every decisions..
I love you cause you make me feel that you’re always near even though you’re literally miles away from where I am staying..
I love you for being so stubborn to put up with me despite of my appalling behaviour (which I hope you won’t agree of, haha) that only causes you dismay at some time..
I love you for taking out of your system all our past misunderstandings, and for only noticing the pleasant side of me..
I love you for forgiving me for all my mistakes again and again and again regardless of the pain I caused you to begin with..
I love you for valuing my existence as your "other half" and for appreciating the parts that I have done in order to sustain our so-called commitment..
I love you for giving me your never-ending compliments at all times..
I love you for respecting my every decisions and requests, and for being understanding at most times..
I love you for loving me and for not failing to remind me that, by heart and by words, day after day..
I love you for being part of the reason of my tears and laughter this past few days..
And for all this, I will do my best never to stop loving you, from now and throughout forever, notwithstanding the hindrances of distance, time and pain.
I love you for who and what you are, from the moment I met you.
I love you,, I just do.. It’s as simple as that..

Happy 3rd Month Anniversary..
It’s about time I make you one too.. though it's not as great as yours.. hehe..
You're the best thing that happened to me! I love you! =)]

Foolish

Go with the flow? I'd rather not-
if I did so before - I might be dead by now...

I just wanted to say...
I am never confused of my feelings,
You might have forgotten how you knew me;
I am already matured enough –
and I am dead serious and true;
in everything that I feel.

things happened against our own hearts' desires
weakness made us tumble; distance failed you to be sensible.
fears defeated our senses; doubt overruled your decisions.
where in fact - you'd been deceived by your self-made illusions
lame as it might sounded; we've been unreasonable -
we got drowned in a shallow pond; having the thought its a lake
what’s done is done - we're hurt.
they say; No stranger has the capacity to truly hurt you,
the terrible power is held only by those you truly love.
love... we're hurting cause we do love...don't we?
I do love you - still. and all I want to do is to find you
to find the right way to find our way back into love - without if's with no buts’.
and no matter how dark that way might be...
I will never be afraid; for this feels so right, just so right.
I love you and you love me, nothing really has to change.
Just like the sun rose in the east and set in the west;
Just as you’re born as Sarahlyn, and I, as Joemm.
that was the way things were, and always would be.
I’ve seen it all already.none of us need to speak, or to explain;
nothing more should be insisted between us.
cause I know – and I just believe that I am meant for you.
as you are meant for me.
we don’t ever need to try looking for love;
cause Love will surely find its way between us.
You can call me crazy,
you might think I’m a fool.
however, I called this –
Love by my heart,
Optimism by my mind.