Realization

I failed to express how I truly feel, you've missed the points I wanted you to see
When your world turned me away, then my mind leads me astray
Its the time the meds aren’t enough, and our silence is harder than rough
All I want to do is scream, scream bloody murder, nothing and nowhere
For accepting defeat is improbable; Stockholm syndrome makes perfect sense
When our tears outweigh the light, When we cannot sleep at night
When nothing’s alright; when the face we wear outside is plastic and fake
When we’d finally break the vows we’d make

It laments me that the person I am and the person they see don’t match
I cant escape this fear that there’s no more you left to catch
Its oppressing to be subjected to make the world think I didn’t care
Even when the truth is there’s no one there
When an empty shell makes a better friend than air
Shut out, and shut-in, when our mind truly begin
When that which glistens is an old friend, With no one to quell you,
where and how shall it end?

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, we really cared.
Now think about how we parted, and how much we suffered,
But please don't speak, remember that I may have lied,
But I told you the honest truth about why and how I fucked on thy side,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that you were the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.
Why do I still need to please you when I am already by your side?
In contrast, why do i still need to please you 
When you already decided to put US aside?
Why do I still need to make you believe more 
When I already offered you the rest of my life?
Why do I still need to tell you that you need to work WITH me for this?

Too soon for the sun to set, so much to learn and forget
Its too late to become grown yet too young to own
No climactic ending, a lot of confusion and pretending
So many ideas to fumble, so many hearts that crumb
Running head first when love sick, but so desperate to stick
And be just like everyone else, listening to no advice or help
Too much too soon, this relationship was over before noon…

Solitude is the common denominator
Maybe it’s the actions, the vices, 
the realization, isnt it?


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