Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Ended


Sarah,

It took me days, to finalize this message, countless revisions to make sure my words are clear, and messages implied. I don’t know, I wanted to make it bold yet I know I might end up misunderstood. And I might turn out arguing or fighting with you if I try to impart my side. 

There are a lot of things going on my mind, but for you. I will make things short. And I wanted to make it helpful for you, since you’d love to make judgments by yourself, then this message is only full of thoughts and simple statements – comprehending, acceptance and all’s left to you.

*Firstly, I meant what I said, I am sorry.

*I tried to be silent against your accusations and insults.

*I said “take care, bye.” when I left. That was the first and only time I walked out of our conversation – You’re not always the only one who’ve had enough.

*The hell with where I’m into. Yeah, I know and I admit am good for nothing.

*God knows I loved you sincerely. Minahal kita Sarj, against all circumstances.

*True, hindi tayo nagkakasundo sa ibang mga bagay, lagi tayo nagaaway lately, and our commitment has given us loads of stresses and pains.

*But like I’ve shared you before, whenever I think of giving up, I came to think of the reason why I held on for so long. There's a lot of reasons for me to stay, and one could be more than enough; knowing we both loved.

*Love, something we had that’s worth fighting for, that’s worth dying for… forever, but I alone, since you gave up already.

*I cannot imagine just why and how you easily forgot everything that we had and utters only our mistakes and differences.

* Kung nagmamahal ka, first thing na iisipin mo shud be “how to solve the problems. What we can and what we cannot do about it. Yet, you won’t even let a talk happen between us.

*All these ended up this way, not because I failed to show you love – it’s just that I failed, to meet your expectations.

*To be your enemy would definitely be the last thing that I wanted now, if I could just turn back time, I should have ignored my feelings, and maintain a good friendship with you until the very time that we can do more, and better.

*Life offers limitless possibilities; I would be contented to be out of your life if that’s how you wanted me to.

*I had you, and am grateful to Him.

*I’d lost you, and might not have you even just as a friend, but I hope when the time comes, and we met. We both hold no grudges, but the good times and bonds we had, the short but true love we shared.

*Im sorry, I truly am.

 *Thank You, you’ve been the best part of my life, and will ever be.

*I love you.

*I love you, I will then, let God, and let go. But never will I get over you.

*Forgive me, I’ve forgiven you already.  We’re made perfectly as imperfects, you and I.

The last sentence holds great meaning; Forgiving means forgetting. If we don’t want things to happen over again, let us not bring the past up anymore. You’re right, and what’s done is done. We had a failed relationship, but forgetting doesn’t mean we can’t start anew again; in different circumstances. People change, it’s from you.

See? I made this short. Now, its ended...

Joemm